Open A Window

“Sometimes you need to remind yourself that you were the one who carried you through the heartache. You are the one who sits with the cold body on the shower floor, and picks it up. You are the one who feeds it, who clothes it, who tucks it into bed, and you should be proud of that. Having the strength to take care of yourself when everyone around you is trying to bleed you dry, that is the strongest thing in the universe.”

I love this because it’s true no one can make you feel better about yourself except yourself, no one can change how you feel, it’s only you! And you’ll never be happy if you continue to hold on to the things that make you sad. “Happiness is a choice” they say, and yeah things in life make it difficult, somedays you just don’t want to get out of bed you just want to lay there and that’s okay take a break but you need to get up at some point and everything will change when your desire to move on exceeds your desire to hold on. Because at the end of the day you control your own happiness. So be happy and just forget.. don’t wait for something or someone to make you happy make it yourself get up enjoy life open a window and whatever that is you love to do just go and do it and always be thankful for your family for your friends and for everything you have in life.

Once A December

“A bouquet of clumsy words: you know that place between sleep and awake where you’re still dreaming but it’s slowly slipping? I wish we could feel like that more often. I also wish I could click my fingers three times and be transported to anywhere I like. I wish that people didn’t always say ‘just wondering’ when you both know there was a real reason behind them asking. And I wish I could get lost in the stars. Listen, there’s a hell of a good universe next door, let’s go.” – E.E. Cummings

The Scent of Shadows

Never Let Me Go

“I keep thinking about this river somewhere, with the water moving really fast. And these two people in the water, trying to hold onto each other, holding on as hard as they can, but in the end it’s just too much. The current’s too strong. They’ve got to let go, drift apart. That’s how it is with us. It’s a shame, because we’ve loved each other all our lives. But in the end, we can’t stay together forever.” – Never Let Me Go

Forget, forgotten

I was watching an old episode of grey’s anatomy today while working out , and at the end of the episode something really caught my attention.

“In life only one thing is certain, besides death and taxes… No matter how hard we try, No matter how good our intentions, We are going to make mistakes. We are going to hurt people. We are going to get hurt. And if you’re ever going to recover, There’s only one thing to say. Forgive and forget. That’s what they say. It’s good advice, but it’s not very practical. When someone hurts us, We want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, We want to be right. Without forgiveness, nothing is ever settled. Hurts never heal. And the most we can hope for… Is to forget.” – Meredith Grey

I guess all we can hope for is one day we’re really going to forget that things that hurt us and the people that betrayed us, cause really that’s the only thing we can do to move on..

 

i miss us

onlyforyou

Never felt this way before the pit of my stomach, in the center of my bones, the beating of my heart, it beats for you, only for you, like it always do. I knew it from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, knew it deep in my empty chest i knew it then I’m falling even more in love with you. The more time I spend with you the more I feel wrapped into you.

a call

w a i t i n g . .

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every ring my heartbeat rise hopping it is YOU.. </3

w a i t i n g . . .

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all i need is a call..

bruises all over me

Now that I’m away, I can’t sleep the night through. I can’t think of anything but you. all I want is to be there for you. I tried my best to hide this away to hide the pain the broken pieces you made me ,but i couldn’t i just couldn’t anymore. I go back to you every time, I fight for you all the time. no matter how bad you hurt me, no matter how broken you made me. why won’t you fight for me ? Bruises all over me. Is it my fault for giving in, for giving you all?! I told you how i feel, how bad it feels ,but you didn’t care like i wasn’t even there. you will never love me the way i do, you will never care. You’ve never showed me. </3 i can’t fix you anymore. it seems that i will never quite get you. I need to stop missing you.